Cole's Letter

Cole's Letter 

Letter to Peter

2/16/12

Author’s Note: This is a letter from Cole to Peter explaining how sorry he is about what he did to him. And what has happened since the island.

Dear Peter,

            After my time on the island I have learned my mistakes and I have learned how to control my anger and how to get rid of my anger completely. Now I live with my parents, with no abuse, no hatred, and best of all no anger. I want to take this time to say that I am sorry for what I did to you. I have learned that what I did was wrong and that it was my entire fault. I hope what you could forgive me for what I did. And I hope that you know that it was a foolish mistake and I’m sorry. I hope that one day we can be friends. If I could go back in time I would change everything that happened that day. I would be nice to people. I used to beat people up because that was all I knew. My dad beat and I hated him for it. But now I understand he got beat up by his dad too, so that was all he knew, he didn’t know any better. I am sorry for your injuries and I don’t think I could ever forgive myself for what I did, there will always be a hole where I will never forget about what I did.

            Peter I know you still don’t have full trust for me, even after our time together on the island, but maybe one day you will understand that I am sorry. I will never be the same and I know neither will you. I now that your injuries will ever fully heal but after the time on the island with me I hope that you healed a little not only physically but also mentally and I hope that you build some trust for me. I know what I did was wrong and you probably don’t want to forgive me and that is ok because if I were you I wouldn’t forgive me either. I just want you to know how sorry I really am and how I feel that nobody deserves to be treated like that. After time on the island, not only alone but with you I come to think of us as friends and I know you don’t think that way yet but I hope with time and healing you will forgive me and we can be friends.

            I now live with my parents and my does not beat me anymore, and there is no hatred or anger at our house. Edwin was right about everything, anger can never be forgotten. I had a pond built in my backyard and I soak everyday and I walk by myself up a hill in my neighborhood and roll my anger away. After the island I have come to know not only myself better but also the people around me, such as my parents and Garvey. He comes to visit often and he enjoys spending time with my family and I. I have not heard from Edwin since the island, I sometimes wonder how he is doing. I often think of the Spirit Bear, and the things he has taught me. I will never forget the day I got attacked and my right arm will never be the same. I now go to a new school and have many friends. I just wanted to say I am sorry for what I did. And I will never do anything like that again. I hope you can forgive me for everything.

You’re Friend,

            Cole Mathews